27 Ağustos 2013 Salı

Insanin evrimi

O gun Elif Safak okurken gormustum, bir insan depresyon sonrasi hic eskisi gibi olmaz, kullerinden dogar bambaska insan olur diye. Ben bu blogu ilk actigimda kotu bir iliskim vardi, habire ayrilir, ayrilmaz ister, kafamla kalbim arasinda kalirdim. Yillar gecti annemin mantigiyla kendi arasinda kalan kiz buyudu, yine kotu iliskiler yasasi, guzel iliskiler yasadi, kotu ayriliklar yasadi. Insan evrim geciriyor hani ya, epey de degisiyor, dertlerin tarzi degisiyor, dertlerin etkisi, izleri herbirsey degisiyor, ama yavas be anacigim. Soyle bir bakiyorum, cevremdeki pek cok insan benimle birlikte, oyle cok mutlu olmak diye birsey yok, elindekiyle mutlu olmak var. Ya da ne bileyim pekcok sey degismese bile insanin hayatinda, hayata tutumu degisiyor insanin, tek gercek kendini mutlu edebilmek...Ve bunun icin kendini tanimak gerekiyor, bilmek, sonra deli gibi cabalamak gerekiyor. Hayat hep bir caba, hep bir evrim, mutlu olmaya calismak, kimi zaman basarmak, kimi zaman basaramamak ama hep en az hasarla ustesinden gelebilmek, hep birseyleri beklemek, beklerken hayatin da tadina varabilmek. Hayat guzel, insanlar guzel, hayat bazen kotu, insanlar da ama hayat boyle oldugunca kotu halleriyle guzel. Cok mutlu olmayi beklememek gerek, mutlu olacak seyler bulmak gerek, bir de az mutlulukla yetinmek. E avuc ici kadar mutluluk yeter... :)

PS. nedenseacaba yapmisim blogumu, eskiden hep boyle sorular sorardim. Simdi sorularim bile evrim gecirdi, ne olacak acaba. Sanirim birkac yila bunu da birakip hayati oldugunca, daha guzel yasabilecegim :)

26 Ağustos 2013 Pazartesi


Talking to a friend, I said from now on I want to be logical with a hint of hope, because I have done hope with a bit of hint of logic for years and I have failed in terms of usual life success measurements we know. I am 31, single, not hopeful to be married or have kids in my targeted age. It is scary, I did not know it would come so quickly, I want to stop worrying because I am happy with what I have, only if I would not worry about imagining myself alone when I am 45. I don't know why it happens this way but its worrisome after fun years in 20s, suddenly you become 30, and you find yourself kinda alone while everybody is getting married and having kids. It becomes like a competition and you are behind if you have no hope, no bf by this age. It is quite weird!

I luv Brene Brown's TED talk, one of my favorites. She says "we want to make uncertain certain". I do. But many good things she says.

“Owning our story can be hard but not nearly as difficult as spending our lives running from it. Embracing our vulnerabilities is risky but not nearly as dangerous as giving up on love and belonging and joy—the experiences that make us the most vulnerable. Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the infinite power of our light.”

“You are imperfect, you are wired for struggle, but you are worthy of love and belonging.” 

"Love is not something we give or get; it is something that we nurture and grow, a connection that can only be cultivated between two people when it exists within each one of them – we can only love others as much as we love ourselves."

“We cannot selectively numb emotions, when we numb the painful emotions, we also numb the positive emotions.” 

“Vulnerability is the birthplace of love, belonging, joy, courage, empathy, and creativity. It is the source of hope, empathy, accountability, and authenticity. If we want greater clarity in our purpose or deeper and more meaningful spiritual lives, vulnerability is the path.” 

23 Ağustos 2013 Cuma


The Economist sever oldum, super seyler cikiyor.

Facete cok vakit harcadigimi dusundugum sirada. Bundan sonra yapmiyorum!!! Face gunde bir kez 1 saat, girmek istedigimde, gazete, mecmua, journal okuyacagim, kararim budur. Hayatimi kotu yonde etkiledigini dusunuyorum, kesinlikle!


Facebook is bad for you! Get a life!

Kesinlikle dogru:

The researchers recruited 82 Facebookers for their study. These volunteers, in their late teens or early 20s, agreed to have their Facebook activity observed for two weeks and to report, five times a day, on their state of mind and their direct social contacts (phone calls and meetings in person with other people). These reports were prompted by text messages, sent between 10am and midnight, asking them to complete a short questionnaire.

Those who used Facebook a lot were more likely to report a decline in satisfaction than those who visited the site infrequently. In contrast, there was a positive association between the amount of direct social contact a volunteer had and how positive he felt. In other words, the more volunteers socialised in the real world, the more positive they reported feeling the next time they filled in the questionnaire.

Su anda uyku ve yemek yemek disinda en cok yaptigim sey facebook, hayat kalitemin artmasi icin darbe yapiyorum ve facebook ban!!!

20 Ağustos 2013 Salı


I was never into neuroscience, till recently I have started working on neurotoxicity. It is an incredible field, like so many other topics but somehow a little bit more excitement and interest in it. It could be because I am new to the subject and there are a lot to learn.

Apart from that, I always luved physiological experiments, relating human behaviors to hormones and neurotransmitters. It could be because I want no quilt on my side and always wanna blame the hormones or my brain :) Similar to what I wrote yesterday, here is another research.

Here is the neurologist who gives the information. How fun he looks :) Like in one of the cartoons where a red long hair guy try to hunt a bird, I totally dont remember the name of the cartoon but I have the image in my mind.

Anyways, so adult rats are used in this research. They apply light to observe day and night difference in neurotransmitters in the brain. And in the darker they showed lower dopamine, like people in the winter time. Their anxiety and confidence depend on neurotransmitters. So behaivoral changes were observed based on neurotransmitter switches. Quite interesting!

19 Ağustos 2013 Pazartesi

All time favorite TED talks!

TED talks are one of my favorite thing to listen when I have spare time, and I want to do something useful. I believe they can very very informative and can change one's perspective. One recent one I luved to listen was about how oxytocin can increase trust, generosity, and empathy, and how high testosterone can inhibit it (no wonder men are selfish, smh), and how 5% of the people dont have this and we call them bastard the speaker says :)

Paul Zak Trust, morality and oxytocin

The listed talks are some of my all time favorites, if you have time, please listen!

Favorite TED talks:

Listened and luved

7. Amy Cuddy: Your Body Language Shapes Who You Are

10. Mary Roach: 10 Things You Didn’t Know About Orgasm
15. Shawn Achor: The Happy Secret to Better Work
16. Brené Brown: The Power of Vulnerability
17. Meg Jay: Why 30 is Not the New 20
19. Dan Gilbert: The Surprising Science of Happiness
22. Paul Zak: Trust, Morality… and Oxytocin?

Will listen the rest after listening to my favorites couple more times :))

Long time no see

Selam blogcum,

Naber?! Ne cok zaman gectiiii??!? Bu arada New Port News-Virginia-Philly'e gidildi, dostlar goruldu, yeni dostluklar edinildi, gobekler atildi, abi ziyarete geldi, gezildi, tozuldu, cok calisildi, muzikale gidildi, jaz dinelnildi, yorunuldu, abiler gitti, dinlenildi, kilo alindi, az calisildi, haftada 4 cardio yapildi ilk kez 1 saat elipticalla birlikte, alisveris yapildi, dostlar goruldu, surf bile yapildi vayki vay. Bunlarin yanisira, bilet alindi, 2 hafta sonra Seattle-Portland-SF yolcusu kalmasin! Hocaya soraydim iyiydi! Cok olmus ama. Uc bes resim:

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